2003年06月17日
I continue to write the words, but it seems my voice and my heart are never heard, maybe its me and I just seem to want more from you then your willing to give back, for me it makes me so sad and hurt I love you more than you even realize, more than you could even imagine you have become a big part of my life, you are my life you just don see it and maybe you never will. You see you came and opened up my heart to love someone again, so deeply. You have touched me in places I never knew existed only I feel things have somehow become strained. I am with you but yet I still feel alone, like I am in a relationship but yet not in one, because it seems so one sided I give of all my feeling, my soul, my heart just to be rejected.
I so tired of being here in this place, where all I do is care, but I feel you are going to leave, this feeling won leave me alone knowing your feeling for me have gone, cause they must be, I can seem to feel the love anymore. You captivated me youe your light, but the darkness still lingers inside for I love you so deeply and you just keep pushing me aside, but you see you still have all of me, my heart, my soul, all of me and these feeling won subside
Do you know at night I cry when your sleeping, I watch you while you sleep because I love you so much, I want to touch you, but I know youl just push me away, I guess your past just won let you live in the future or allow u to have a future with me. I try hard to hold on, hold on to you but I need your help, need you to see me like I see you. I am bound by love for you and I know it will never go away. Your presence will always follow me where ever I go, what ever I do because I never wanted anyone like I want and need you.
I am asking for your help because I don know what else to do, I love you and don want to let this love go, because I know my heart will never be the same without you. If you love me then fight for me, for us and for our love. Your hurting me can u see. I keep forgiving u because I love u but a person can only take so much pain, and rejection. The wounds never heal from this kind of hurt only time can help u to forget, but I never want to forget u.
I am drowning in your love, and I need you to save me
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