i always have a dream, i dream of being somebody who was so famous that every people in our society will fully repect me, or someone who had the power to control people's life, people will be afraid of disobeying me, i am the king, or even just someone who was so damn rich, like bill gates, so that i could buy whatever i want to. which, in my dream i'll become somebody in the world, and i am able to whatever i want to. however, will i feel really happy when i have achieve these things fianlly? i don't know, all i know that is i feel so lonely, and there are a lot of trouble coming over and over against me. i am f*cking tired to deal with all these sh*ts. but don't expect others will help you, they won't, because they think i am so powerful, so stong that i don't need any helps from them. and most importantly, ther are jelous, people don't respect people by he got the money, power or not, instead people who got all of these will be isolated by others, most of the normal people will scare of me, and people who can't catch up with me will hate me, even if we are friends. well, i don't think i still have the right to have any friends.. thinking back all these years, i have work my ass out to achieve to such success, however, i don't have the happiness or any fullfillments. i have to still work my ass out in order to secure my achievement, i still need to fight..
uh, when will be the end?when am i able to get out all of these? i am tired..