BY MYSELF

what do i do to ignore them behind me:do i follow my instincts blindly?do i hide my pride/from these bad dreams and give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?do i /sit here and try to stand it?or do i /try to catch them red-handed?do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness,or do i trust nobody and live in loneliness?becasue i cant hold on/when im sterched so thin,i make the right moves but im lost within,i put on my daily facade but then i just end up getting hurt again ,by myself,i ask why,but in my mind ,i find i cant rely on myself

i cant hold on,to what i want when i m stretched so thin,its all too much to take in,i cant hold on ,to anything watching everything spin,with thoughts of faliure sinking in.

if i/turn my back i m defenseless,and to go blindly seems senseless,if i hide my pride and let it all go on/then they`ll take from me till everthing is gone,if i let them go i ll be outdone,but if i try to catch them i ll be outrun,if i m killed by the questions like a cancer then i ll be buried in the slience of the answer ,by myself

how do you think/i ve lost so much,i m so afraid/i m out of touch,how do you expect/i will know what to do when all i know/is what you tell me to

dont you know,i cant tell you how to make it go,no matter what i do,how hard i try i cant seem to convince myself why im stuck on the outside....